Paranoia

Its been awhile, mostly cause I've been very happy as of late. However, I'm worried that I'm losing my friends. I don't have many that live near me (3 to be exact).  I'm not concerned about losing those people, I know they're there no matter what. However, my online friends have almost all become distant. I'm not sure if its me, or if they have just gotten busy, but I'm freaking out because I adore many of these people. I'm become worried that I'm just annoying people when I try to talk. I don't know if its me or the sparkle of the internet that is loosing its shine. But I feel distance, where I didn't used to feel it. Again, I've lost one person very dear to me, I don't want to lose anymore.