New Year, New Me?

I need to change. I won't be happy with myself if I don't. Things like exercising and changing my diet will be a piece of cake compared to the one thing I need to do for my emotional well being. I have to let go. I keep saying that I'm over it, mostly out of anger and jealousy. But I have yet to actually let go. There is a part of me that is terrified that if I let go, I'll be losing out on something wonderful. However, I can't just sit around waiting for someone to "come to their senses". I let go off one love, and things couldn't be better between us (well I guess he could have chosen me and I wouldn't be having to worry about this other guy but you know what I mean).  I need to find a way to do the same with this guy, he seems happy. I should let go, and let myself be happy for once.